I personally wasn't a porn star, I was a young girl in love with someone extremely addicted to porn, from the time I was 18 years old to 21.
I felt like if my bones didn't stick out and poke him he wasn't going to love me And this is where it gets dark. So I communicated it to him, and he said he was going to stop but he didn't.
I asked him about the porn and if there was something I wasn't doing for him that he desired, and he could never answer me with anything but, "It's just a visual thing." That guys like to see a lot of girls naked and that's just how they are built. In fact it just got worse, and he became unable to be pleased.
I did this because I was younger, and I personally didn't understand abusive signs in relationships just yet.
Moving forward to when we were "official" for a few months...
What I mean by that was he couldn't get off no matter how skinny I was, how much make up I had on, or how quiet I was when his family would emotionally abuse me.
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